Unpicking life in all its jumpers
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***FOR FULL EFFECT, YouTube ‘Photographs’ by Arcade Fire. *** All the selves before youmy dichotomy on lovecould no longer see. Feelwhat I could feelwhen you look at me. Touch was slow—Beethoven’s No. 5crescendo. Hearwhat collects in my mindto waltz into yours. To kiss yougood night,to massageyour temples. Smellbefore you can…
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Several days ago, thousands flocked to the star-studded steps of New York’s iconic Metropolitan Museum to witness music, sport, and television collide with high fashion at the 2025 Met Gala. This year’s theme, Superfine: Tailoring Black Style, brought together 600 carefully chosen guests — all interpreting the night’s dress code, “Tailored for…
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Whenever I see something turtle-related, I immediately think of you. Someone I never met,who, in one Instagram DM, destroyed my idea of love and my trust in people by consequently ending my relationship. “I’m in a world of pain… and I just need to know.How did you make him fall…
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this week I woke up feeling rather lost. I reminded myself that nothing had changed. That I had no reason to waste another beautiful day. The sun was still coming and going, the nights bled slow. Sleep felt like a refuge, the shower still smelled like soap. My dog loved…
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Over the past few weeks, I’ve had this personal vendetta to start being alone more. It’s funny, the first few months post break-up, it kind of feels terrifying to be alone. Most days you wake up and feel like you’re in a cold-plunge. Everything you did with them, you now…
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Time doesn’t exist here. There are no clocks, no phones. Here, beauty and smarts count for nothing. You don’t have to be happy, in a relationship or even liked. You don’t need friends or flowers on Valentine’s Day. In the bathroom, you are the audience and the show. What…
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Every morning, I start my day in the park. I love how the sun drenches you in that warm, golden glow. A reward for those who don’t lay in bed and who are usually accompanied by a 4-legged friend and a cup of coffee. My body now wakes up around…
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When he sees me, he laughs. “ You look… like a married Jewish woman, ” he says shaking his head. “ More Jewish than you? ” “ Most definitely,” he says, as we both giggle up the stairs and past the men in bullet-proof vests and caps. “ And why……
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I want kisses that curl the edge of my feet. I want looks that linger over weird-shaped glasses but never speak. I want to feel my hair bounce as it catches the breeze. I want to find the most beautiful views and never leave. I want to find new places…
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As of late my mornings always start the same, somewhere in nature. The sun greets my mum and I like old friends, as we reach the top of the lookout and then it’s just us and endless water. I remember it was so windy that day, I felt this strong…
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She had a kind, full face that smiled often and widely. Her Instagram profile was full of collages of her new place, friends and beach days. Each had hopeful, warm bios underneath with some in French and some not. She was bold and confident enough to make a life for…
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Sometimes I feel so full of l o v e, I need to express it or it will burst. Suppress it and feel it hurt; wait for months, for that one little …
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One thing I need you to know, I find it hard to let people go. I was just a kid, when it was planted like a seed. One that I’m ashamed of, one time hasn’t been able to weed. It’s stuck in my pores, it colours my hair. In the…
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I want to remember this time, When things are simple. And all our moments fit neatly into a box. Where the thought of you blooms, throughout my day. As I play with each of the letters, of your trés serious name. When we speak exclusively, in tongues and eyes. And…
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What if they’re careful and then they’re cruel? They play with your best parts, dissect them like food. When they turn the lights out, mid-conversation. One minute you were peeling yourself, and next your lacerated.
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“ If you need any help sweetheart, let me know okay?” He calls out to me as I start on dinner. Tonight he’s light, chatty. This is a grandad I’m surprised to meet, especially as over the past few decades he’s shown no interest in me. “ Kids are to…
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Maybe everyone has that one person, or even two who give them something no one else can. Someone free, that being with them makes you feel free, like a holiday from yourself. For me, this person was a 6 foot 2, greek boy from Hunter’s Hill. His Yaya Anastasia, made…
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I follow a white T-shirt with a purple butterfly print, down Central station’s endless overpass tunnel. The tiled floor and ceilings bounce snippets of conversation from earphones, mouthes and buskers. And if that wasn’t overwhelming enough, the iridescent lights burn holes into your retinas, as people glance at you with…
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WAS IT PRINCESS OF THE PEOPLE OR PRINCESS, CONFUSED? The show opened in picturesque France with guests seated in boats. To the far left was a leafy park with a red lipstick-like carpet, separating it from the water. The carpet adding a slice of glamour and celebrity dividing the natural…
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Was this Venus or are we dreaming? Zuhair Murad’s Fall 2020 Couture Show sets the scene with an single voice-over that speaks to the many waxing moods of womanhood, gifting them dreams draped in feathers, dreamy chiffon and sparkling iconography. Horoscopes, astrology and biblical references are embellished onto rich plum…
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Hey! There’s been a robbery. She stole my heart and took off on me.” Over and over again, I would listen to Lime Cordial, as the only way to get through the day. On the bus to Uni.. in the bathroom… at the gym…. My therapist had…
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My new thing is trying to water myself. I do it in the quietness of being alone, however like my pot-plants my track record isn’t great. It seems like the only pot-plant I haven’t killed is an Elephant Palm. It lives in a vase of water. It is the one…
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I’ve been avoiding a certain phone call. One I use to make every week since I was eleven. She was like my second mother and now I can’t even call her- can’t bring myself to press that button. And I feel guilty about it everyday, so I smoosh it to…
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It’s the end of January- already. Crazy how this month has vanished in a blink. Being absent from Christmas and New Years, kind of felt like I missed the things that usually kiss the year goodbye. The rituals and people that swaddle you up in a blanket of retrospection; with the…
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At 1:35am we finally arrived to our hotel. Melbourne looked peaceful at night. The sky was unfamiliar and sprawling. Mesmerized, I watched out the window as glittery fingers stretched across the darkness, all the way to the countryside. I never liked Melbourne. I found the weather too cold, the coffee…
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It was a Friday night and the first night I had touched alcohol in 2 months. I had been silently proud of myself, counted the days which turned into weeks; with every occasion out an opportunity to practise saying no. No, thank you I’m dry…. No I can”t I’m pregnant.…
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Self-preservation womenswear 2022 ’Self-preservation’ is a womenswear collection that encourages contemplation, in how we treat other human-beings much like how we treat our clothing. We discard, we keep, and we store sometimes even just the memory of people, long after they’ve left us. As the collection progresses, the harsh quilted…
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“ I actually think you’re really interesting… some of the people online don’t say anything,” the table to the left of me said. The guy is seated his legs-crossed, in the corner. Opposite sits a petite girl, with reddish hair. She nods vigorously. It’s been 4 months since I’ve been…
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On the weekends, I wake up in my apartment building to a whole different place. The frantic frazzled nature of footsteps and shuffling are silent, as the lifts stay empty and you can almost hear everyone exhale, as it marks the two days of freedom. Two days where you don’t…
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I can see my former, kid-self fling my school shoe in frustration off my feet and it colliding with the glass doors. And then my dad instantaneously bursting into my room, his eyes fixed on the gaping hole. Woah, was all I could remember saying. I wake up everyday at…
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Was it machoism, insecurity from high-school, childhood trauma or our pathetic human need to see the good in people? Why was going back to someone who treated us so disposably, so delicious? There we were, like some toxic mating ritual, waiting for our coffees and staring at each other. Then,…
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I haven’t written anything in a while, and by a while I mean months. I’ve been in a writer’s drought. Or if you were a writer you would call it lazy.I thought it was just a pause, a flicker. And then it snowballed into full-on avoidance. If I was being…
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Ahhhhhhhhhh. My fingers hit the keyboard for the first time in months, as thoughts slowly poured out instead of sprinting, from my head… to my mouth… to a pen… to a google document… But here tonight, I finally felt every letter of the word, calm. I could see the shape…
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After a weekend that seemed to never end (in the best possible way), I came back down to Earth on Monday morning. Feeling tired but elated, I could feel a smile press into my lips, as I swam in the pool. Bliss dancing all over my body, in an embarrassing…
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“Is that… what I think it is… ON THE BACK OF MY DEER!!?” ” Yep.” The male textile teacher said, as we both peered at my rather unfortunate deer-print. It seemed to have grown a labia on one of the deer’s backs. “Excellent.” “And to think it’ll only get more…
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“A copper crock-pot is… 1,437-fucking-dollars? Good goddd!“ It was 11:06pm on a Wednesday night – hump night. And for those of us who have been at work all day and don’t feel like humping anyone, we default to internet shopping. This activity was just as mentally exhausting as the latter,…
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Loneliness is a state of mind. A place that lives inside all of us. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I had to double check my address as I think between trying to find a new place, my best-friend distancing herself and being let go of from 2 jobs in the space of…
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Ever get the feeling that sometimes the universe is just not in your favour? Like karma is a wave, and sometimes it buries you and other times it allows you to float peacefully at the top; like a lily in a Koi pond or a bug in jello? Well, the…
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It’s amazing what saying I love you does and actually meaning it. I said it last Saturday night, and even over the phone, it still scared the living shit out of me.Like a new cocktail, something sweet and unknown. It bites your tongue. The salt tantalising, and yet you don’t…
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$340 later and I was back home, double vaxxed with my dog, a free house and the fan on high. The lights were finally starting to dim on a very long boxing day. It was the second trip on my round tour of trauma. Only kidding, Tamworth was the 2/3…
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” I really don’t care what celebrities do,” he said, while I watched him dip some orange and mayonnaise covered prawns into soy sauce. Cue yet another silence… It was early December but really it felt like November. The month where everything slows down and tiredness sets in, after another…
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His face was perfectly symmetrical. His aftershave climbing over the table. I inhaled harder, as it belly-danced circles in my nose. Round and around, as sexy as the red light that drenched us from above. “Mmmmmmmmmmmm,” I said back, with serious eyes. Occasionally nodding. This date was the kind that…
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Finding the right wallpaper is kinda like finding the right friend. You have to pick carefully as both can change your mood in an instant. Installing it takes time, effort and mess. It will stain your mind with certain beliefs in magnificent or unflattering ways. And even has the power…
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I’m an insecure lover, I can admit it. Passionate, I often quit it. Loud but usually soft. Warm and sometimes lost. A bouquet of complexity. I wear my emotions, rather than store them inside me. Bury them; I cannot hide. I’m too honest not to say what’s on my mind.…
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Everything is flavourless. Today I woke up realising I had a dream about someone I hadn’t seen in years. Why they were still popping up in my subconscious I have no idea, but I felt almost possessed while reached for my phone and searched their name up on my Facebook,…
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Last night was an interesting Wednesday. It existed inside the studio, or my hiding cave. You can find me here everyday from 5pm to 11, guaranteed. And sometimes until the early hours of the morning- given ideas are flowing and fingers haven’t been pricked by too many pins. It seems…
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Inhale………………………………………………….. exhale. Exhale some more…………………………………….hmmmmmmmmph. I check my phone’s walk-o-metre – it reads new record. 11.7km – 619 calories, just today. I was on the kind of walk where you lose track of time and mentally throw away the list of things to do. It was rare I walked alone.…
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